... but in a good way. I quit smoking three weeks ago, on a whim, and cold turkey. I haven't had so much as a puff -- according to my SilkQuit meter, which I have on every single computer I use regularly, currently reads thusly:
Three weeks, one day, 7 hours, 57 minutes and 47 seconds. 446 cigarettes not smoked, saving $117.24. Life saved: 1 day, 13 hours, 10 minutes.
And I haven't even maimed anyone yet! It's honestly not been that bad, considering I didn't really prepare for it at all. I woke up one morning feeling sickish, and not wanting to go out to buy cigarettes, so I thought "Screw this, I'm quitting." The first week was awful, the second week not so bad, and this week is weird, because I don't really want a cigarette, except for the times when I would normally have one. Jeff is being very helpful, and patient, too. Of course, I've been eating like mad, and am thus now roughly the size of a barn, but hey, I'm not smoking! So, I'm pleased about that.
I'm amazed that I haven't broken down and smoked, honestly, because work has been one drama after another. The latest crisis involves my very, very annoying coworker, who just stopped showing up at work this week. He was here, and being more irritating and thick-skulled than normal on Monday, and then Tuesday... no coworker, no phone call, no nothing. Plus, his cell phone suddenly wasn't working. We couldn't get ahold of him, and had no idea what was going on until his mother called here Wednesday, after finding my boss's number on her caller ID. She explained that he's had some sort of breakdown, he's out of state, and ... well, that's pretty much it. We don't know if he's coming back (my money is on no), we don't know where he is or what happened to him, and we don't know what's going to happen at work. It's all very strange. I'm feeling a bit guilty, because I am glad he's gone -- he was on the way to being fired anyway, because he is just dumb as a bag of hair, and I'm glad that I can do my own job instead of running around fixing his mistakes all day long. But on the other hand, we probably won't be able to replace him (money woes and all) so we're going to be very, very busy.
My shoulders hurt. I expect it's from holding a sign over my head for an hour or so after work last night, at the demonstration in front of the State House. I was thrilled when the SJC here ruled that banning gay marriage was unconstitutional, because they were, of course, absolutely right. I'm sickened at the way my state's government is now reacting. Let me say just this, because a lot of other people have said it better (most notably Claire, who moved me to tears). Amending the Constitution to deny a whole large group of people is stupid, bad, and wrong. No, it is. No, really, it is. And I'd love to hear one, just ONE, logical argument against gay marriage that doesn't come from the Bible. Now, I'm a Christian -- I was raised Christian, wandered away from it a bit in college, and then wandered back. My beliefs, my religion -- they are very dear to me. They are a huge part of who I am. But they have no place at all in my government. I was horrified last night at the sign some idiot was holding that read "Homosexuals are possessed by demons!" No, they aren't. They're people, who deserve exactly the same rights as everyone else, and to try to justify denying them rights is to justify bigotry, and I will have no part of it. The debate going on right now is madness, plain and simple.
Anyway. I'm dashing this off at work (bad!) because Kymm called me a slattern, and who am I to defy Kymm? Jeff will be here in a few minutes, and then it's off home, hurrah!