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June 07, 2000
Site makeover!
Big shout-outs to Saundra, who let me use her design for my new look, and Patrick and Lee, who actually got the images working for me. (I am an HTML idiot, and I couldn't manage to figure it out with out a lot of help.) So what do you think? I like it -- I love the book theme, and it's nice and clean and easy to read. I haven't added any links yet, but I hope to have time to do that today. (Note: since I switched servers, you can't see the lovely template Saundra designed. Sad...)
I'll be busy most of today -- I have an appointment with a psycholanalyst this afternoon. I'm having a very hard time taking it seriously -- I know it will do me good to talk to someone objective, to sort out my thoughts, but still... I'm going to see a shrink. Something I never thought I would do.
I wrote a letter to Barry's mother late last week, telling her my side of things. I have no idea what Barry's told her, if anything, about our breakup. She and I were getting to be pretty close, and she was always very good to me. She let me live in their house for a while, and she always treated me like family. I didn't want to leave things with me never saying another word to her, and the thought that she might think that this breakup was my decision was troubling to me. Barry had told me that, not only was I not allowed to contact his family (!) but that, if I called his mother, she wouldn't speak to me. God only knows what he's told her -- he told me "What I tell my family is none of your business." So I wrote to her, saying thank you for treating me so kindly, and telling her, as nicely as possible, what had happened. I tried to leave out as many of the gory details as I could, but I did tell her that Barry was cheating on me, and that I had walked in on him in bed with his girlfriend. I honestly never expected to hear back from her, but I gave her my work number just in case. She called me on Monday morning and said "Unless you hear it from me, if anyone tells you I don't want to talk to you, they're lying." Hmmm. She e-mailed me later and asked if we could get together. She seems... sympathetic isn't quite the right word... but it's the only word that comes to mind. She's as affectionate and friendly as she always was -- more so, even. We were supposed to meet tonight, but she e-mailed to tell me that her grandmother has just passed away.
Other than that, everything is going along smoothly. My roommate and I are getting along fabulously, and I can see us becoming good friends -- I hope we do. She's a sweet person, very open and friendly, and genuine. The cats are slowly making their peace -- Smoke and Tucker are getting along, at least. Tucker seems to have adopted me as his new favorite person -- he runs up and demands petting when I get home, and curls up on my bed next to me at night. I boot him out when I go to bed, so that Smoke can have some quality time alone (I also don't particularly want catfights happening in my room in the middle of the night) and he sits outside the door and cries for a little while. Zoe is keeping his distance -- maybe having the other two cats getting along has put him in his place. He's aggressive and ver dominant, which worried me. But he's been good lately, and doesn't venture into my room much anymore.
Work is... work. Same as always. It keeps me busy, which is good right now. I'm still reading The Crystal Cave by Mary Stewart -- it's the kind of story I can lose myself in. There are three more books in the series after this one, so it will keep me occupied for a while.
That's all I have time for right now. Let me know how the new design works for you -- although I don't plan on changing it again for a long time, since I am, after all, an HTML illiterate.
Posted by Mary Ellen at June 7, 2000 02:45 PM